"I've counted the cost & I want to seek after God with all my heart."
That's what I said at Senior High Camp in front of 170+ students/leaders. I said that no matter what God calls me to do or where God calls me to go, I will SEEK AFTER HIM with all my heart. I will move and not be gripped by fear.
God's got a great sense of humor because in less than 48 hours after being home from camp, I was faced with a choice to count the cost or allow myself to be gripped by fear. Thursday morning I got a call from one of the pastors asking if I'd be willing to go to Ireland with the Global Impact Team. Because of illness, one of the team members had to drop out. The catch...the team leaves on Monday. In case you didn't realize it...that's less than 3 days away! And...I needed to make a decision by that afternoon. Immediately, I was gripped by fear. I know it's an incredible opportunity, I get that...really. But doing something like this is just out of my comfort zone. I don't know the team, I didn't know anything about where we'd be going, I had no idea what we'd be doing, but I had to decide that day! I knew what I needed to say, but the longer I processed it all, the more that fear was taking over.
Well...to keep it short...I'm leaving for Ireland on Monday afternoon. I still haven't met my team, I'm still not 100% sure what we'll be doing, but I'm 100% sure that I serve a God that wants me to MOVE and SEEK HIM. So, I'm excited, anxious, and a little nervous for all that is in store.
I'm counting the cost, and I'm going to seek after God with all my heart.
3 comments:
Hey Kristy. How are you?
I had a great time at camp with you and I just wanted to say "hey"! HEY KRISTY!!! lol.
Hugs,
Kaylyn
Oh Kristy! I am so very excited for you and I know you will have an amazing time there. I too would be nervous given the last minute decision and other circumstances that went along with it but you and i both know that God is sending you for a reason and it's pretty freakin awesome that you took the opportunity right away to seek God with all your heart and not to be gripped by fear. I will miss you TONS but will definitely be praying for your safety, relationship building with the team, and that God will work in and through you while you are there! Love you!
Alyssa
fyi... i decided to start my own blog... :D
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