Gaining Some Perspective

God’s funny.  No really…He is.  Just when I think I’ll never get past the fear and doubt I’m facing, He reminds me that my life is SO blessed.

This is taken straight from my journal.  I just can’t not share it.

This morning I went down to be with the little kids since I knew I didn’t have enough energy to play with the toddlers.  Holding those precious little ones, I couldn’t help but think of their stories.  I honestly don’t even know them, but I can’t imagine being abandoned or given up.  I know what it is to have a family that loves and cares for me.  They have been my lifeline for these first five days here in Kenya.  I can’t imagine not having that or knowing that kind of love.  The little ones here are lucky because they have caregivers who watch over them, care for them, play with them, and love them as their own.  What about those who are abandoned and never found?  My heart breaks for those who don’t know yet what it is to be a part of a family.  I pray that God brings parents for all these precious children.  As I rocked Ezekiel to sleep in my arms, I prayed that there would come a day when each of these children will have a mom of their own to rock them to sleep and reassure them that they are deeply loved and safe.

It’s good to get some perspective in the midst of what I consider a tough time for myself.  Even now as I write this I’m gaining perspective.  Yes, the transition has been difficult, but I know wherever life takes me I have an incredible support system of friends and family who will always be there for me.  My tough days don’t seem so tough when I look at it that way.  My worst night can’t possibly compare with what these little ones have faced.

I have a feeling this next year is going to be full of gaining a lot of new perspective.  And with that perspective comes an opportunity for growth if I allow what I’m seeing, hearing, learning to actually change me.

I am blessed, that is certain.  I’m praying that I never forget that.  And I’m praying this can be a reminder to everyone out there of just how blessed you are too!